Well guys, I'm very new to this but I've discovered in the last few weeks and months I need someplace to get out my feelings whether they be good or bad! I've always loved writing but just don't seem to have the time for it. Hopefully this will work out for me!
I'm going through a really difficult time right now with Steven's baby coming and I don't know what to do anymore. I get so frustrated and upset that things have to be this way right now but I can't show that or he gets ticked at me. I don't want us to fight or turn into him and Jen so I keep my mouth shut and don't say anything. We are just friends though so I really should have nothing to complain about because as far as our friendship goes, things are great... amazing actually. I seriously doubt anybody will be reading this and if you do I doubt that you have any idea what I'm talking about so let me give you a little history.
Steven is my godchildren's uncle (their dad's brother). We met the week he moved home after he got out of the Marine's. Immediately I liked him and come to find out he liked me. We started dating a couple months later and we're only together for just over a month when he broke up with me for no reason. Come to find out he was told by someone that I was going to break up with him and with him being the cocky idiot that he is he believed them and didn't want to be the one dumped. After that we didn't talk for a couple years. Then his brother had an affair with some chick he met at a bar and the whole family got turned upside down. Steven and I started talking and hanging out again and before you know it, we were seeing each other without being official or anything. A year and a half, two ex-girlfriends and one baby (from the most recent ex) we find ourselves in the same spot. Not official, just friends, but more in love with each other than we've ever been. He says we can't be together or do anything about it until Hunter (his possible son) is born and he figures things out. I completely understand that because I agree but it's still frustrating when he has to "play nice" with Jen so that she doesn't flip out and change the baby's name or take him away from Steven. I'm sorry, but what kind of manipulating bitch tries to take away a baby from someone who's going to be an amazing daddy just because he's not doing what she wants???
Anyway, I've stood by him through this whole thing. Maybe I shouldn't have but I am. I love him and can't just walk away. I know that we can make it and we can do amazing things together (not like that, you sicko)! :-)
I think that's it for now... I'm gonna go back to work (shhh... don't tell my boss!!!)
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